Dear diary,
My current job experience might just prove to be the shortest ever experience of me working in a very big institute. I am that much fed up of the experience already, and it’s just my second month on the job.
I have never shied away from responsibility, never backed down from a challenge but even a stubborn person like me knows which battles are worth my time amd which battles aren’t. For almost two months, I have been trying to think nice things about this job, the people, the management and the environment, and you know how positive I can be even without trying. But I have tried and tried and tried. I don’t see one thing that excites me when I think about this job. The salary is just fine, nothing special. The actual job of being emotional health counselor is actually an interesting one but this institution has taken away all the fun element out if it.
They require me to do the things that aren’t a part of my job. I have been in internal conflict ever since I joined this institute. Now I spend my days thinking on the best way to put in my resignation. I have lost all the motivation to keep working there. I don’t even want to try to re-motivate myself to do it.
Ever since I have become NLP Master Practitioner, I have learned a lot of good stuff. But the most important of lessons that I have learnt is that the duration of my stay doesn’t matter, the quality of the work does. If the work I am doing, is not satisfying my own self and is putting me in conflict, I’d rather choose to part ways there and then.
All my efforts and initiatives have been thrown down the drain so far because the management doesn’t have a clue with regards to the work a Psychologist should do. I have tried to manage, no matter how dismal everything is. But I’ve finally had enough!
I have decided to report the superior of my superior, break the chain of command in confidentiality and let him know my concerns about the job and why I want to leave the said job. I want my narrative to be out there, reaching the concerned persons, so that even if it doesn’t help me personally, it paves the way for the next unfortunate person they will hire on my place once I leave.
I mean, yes, I’m sick and tired if the place but that doesn’t mean I would quit without being heard. Yup! I’m that much pissed today!
Anyway, talking about it has given me a fresh headache.
I better go and have some rest before my session with my regular client.
Iyı geceler!