Diary Entry: I Write Again


Dear diary,

It’s been 4 months…… who would’ve thought that I can stay AWOL for 4 months and not say a single word….. No, I don’t have a good reason for my absentees. I’ve just been overworked and lazy and unmotivated and distracted and uninspired and oh, all the usual reasons, for on and off. I’ve been meaning to , no, wanting to write in here for as long as I haven’t written here but every single time, I didn’t. I can’t fathom why.

It’s my last semester in LGU. I still don’t fancy Lahore but I will miss my university and most importantly it’s people, very much. I’ve made more acquaintances here, by will as well as by force (ahem, ahem) than I care to accept. My time here has been enjoyable so far. I’ve also made some people resent me although I don’t know what did I do to make them so. SIST’17 is just around the corner and between freelance writing, university classes, thesis work and different competitions, my mind feels like totally fried but still excited.I don’t know how long I can go on like this though. I’m in a great need for respite but the time never comes and my eyes keep awaiting.

There is one more event coming. NIMUN’17. Surprisingly I have made it into the team again but I’m not very much positive that I will be accompanying the final list of my university’s team ambassadors seeing that my knowledge about Politics, current affairs and all the other “important” topics is seriously lacking.

Anyway, lets see what happens. I will have to work really hard on this one if I want to make it to Islamabad.

And today, I’m just writing for the sake of writing with no purpose in mind. It’s great to be back though!

Until next time!

Diary Entry:LGU Times


Dear Diary,
It’s mid term exam time and as usual I’m sitting blank. I don’t even know what my subject name is, so basically I’m screwed >_<  Anxiety level is a little bit higher but instead of preparing for my exam, I’m preparing for a presentation. I guess, I will start preparation an hour or so before I actually have to write, which is absurd and daring on my part. Perhaps a little too daring even for me, seeing that it’s a new place I’m in and this place is definitely not IIUI :/
Well, as usual I’m writing in here when clearly I need to be studying. I guess this writing is one big reason I don’t freak out when I’m about to be overwhelmed. Oh, and the best creative ideas seem to have some kind of grudge with me. They come when I can’t write them down either because of lack of enough time or resources. Plus, writer’s block sucks big time!
SIST 2016 is right around the corner and I’m not prepared for it even in the slightest. I guess, it’s because I’m not participating in the categories that I’m the best at- Tajweed and Nasheed. This time I’m doing something I have no idea how to do :p Journalism and Spoken word. And the theme this year is also a bit difficult for my “sleeping-for-an-eternity-brain.” I know, winning isn’t everything. It’s just the plus point of competing. But It scares the crap out of me to even thing about the theme this time.
“The Future Awaits: What’s Next?”
I mean, how in the world am I supposed to know the future???!!! And how am I supposed to write about it when I don’t know it?! And that too with a dumb mind :/ I can’t concentrate :/
Anyway, it’s a test I need to pass and it’s something I love. Plus, participation in SIST as a Youth Club team member, is an honour in itself and it’s way better than not participating or missing SIST altogether! Not winning is kinda okay but not okay. Well I guess I will have to get back to it AFTER my exams >.<
Anyway,I must go and try to study for a bit. I hope I do succeed this time :/
Until next time (which would be soon enough-lets say before Psychopathology exam >.< )
Chao!

Diary Entry: Change of Place


Dear diary,
I have joined Lahore Garrison University, a place I dreamt of being at, as soon as I came to know it existed. I am on my way to become a Clinical Psychologist. I’m so happy ever since I came here. It’s as if my life has an actual purpose now. I’m finally interested in actual studies. I can finally say I’m content.
My life here in Lahore and my life generally has taken a big twist. Okay, I knew I was much more than I ever let people see in Islamic Uni, but the way I am now, it’s got even me surprised. I’m the new CR for my class, I’m a whole lot social and chatty, even with the people I hardly know. I actually joke around with teachers and participate in class discussions more than perhaps my whole class does, when combined. I’m more confident than I was ever before. I’m not afraid of messing up anymore. This new found confidence is intoxicating. All this positivity, it’s made my life better, happier. I enjoy every single moment of it! Oh, and I have grown busier. CMH in the mornings classes in the evenings.
Guess, I still like to talk too much when I’m in sharing mood >_< But it’s late and I have a sick body to take care if and of course have work in the morning.
See you ASAP.