Suicidal Ideation


I want to end this life
Did I just startle you?
I don’t wanna say good-bye
Is it too like me?
It’s not something I thought of,today
Its been building inside for so long
I can’t bear it anymore
Does it sound like giving up?
Yes,you have me wrapped around your palm
One twist here,one turn there
And I am broken,crushed,mishandled
Nothing seems worth living for
Nothing fancy in life anymore
Disdain and evil,looking my way
And all the accusing glances
I wanna get over with it in one go
I wanna take the short way out
Just like the coward I am
I can’t keep your love in this heart any longer
And live with myself after betraying you
You have every right to hate me
Hell, I hate myself too.more than you can ever do
So,I don’t wanna live anymore
I want to end this life
And I want you to help me to sleep
Forever,please just this one last favour…..

Give me respite


Why does my heart still skip a beat on hearing your voice?
Why does this spark of hope ignite again?
That maybe,there is a part of you that still remembers me.
Or worst even,a part that hates me,for I did hurt you bad.
I’m stuck in space,no way to outrun your memories
The pain wont let me sleep,the want wont let me live
I have no right to ask you to come to my aid
Knowing its hard to forgive and forget
So I suggest that you hurt me back and be even maybe
For the blame in your eyes kills me from inside
I can’t be near you nor go away
Hurt me bad for I deserve it.
Do whatever,just give me respite. . . .

P.S:I did try to complete it,but guess,some things are never meant to be complete.