Happy B’day…..


To Me….

Or is it?! Is it really, if I don’t have anyone to share it with?!

With all the wishes swarming my way from yesterday up till now, I’ve felt more down than they have lifted me. And for once, I know exactly why. For once I know what is bothering me deep down inside.

When I came to Lahore, I didn’t make any friends here. Because, one; I’m an introvert who loves to be alone and second because most people I’ve encountered here are back stabbing, lying lunatics. And I’m not sorry that I didn’t make any friends because I love to steer clear of all the drama these people bring. And these trivial things become such a heartache. Certainly not worth it.

Yes, I love to be alone. being alone recharges me; keeps me sane. It’s just being lonely that hurts like hell. A day like today, is sadly a reminder of what lovely things I have left behind me in the city I loved so much. It brings a smile on my face and at the same time, it clenches my heart in a suffocating grip. And yes, I’m grateful for all the friends I have, who love me, but are too far away. And like any other pathetic human being, I wish, they were here with me today, physically, instead of this virtual connection we share. But I guess, this is a burden that I must alone bear……

*sigh*

I’ve been thinking about writing a book; a novel of some sort. Or a collection of short stories perhaps, on wattpad. Today might be a great day to start. What do you say?

Until next time…….

 

P.S: I think I’m finally ready to part with the story I wrote and fell in love with.

Hint: look for my next post ❤

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The Happy Poem


I wanna learn how to tango 😆
N I wanna play with guns.
I wanna dress like a medieval huntress,
And a like a snow princess.
I wish to read every book written,
Every series and movie I wanna see.
I wish to learn interesting stuff,
And help people in need.
High hopes, raging war inside,
I guess, a Warrior is what I’ll be
Merlin794

Diary entry 106


Dear diary,
it’s been raining, hard, and it’s a complete guess. I haven’t been outside after I finished my classes and fee submission tasks, which exhausted me, by the way. Uni life is good but exhausting, that’s for sure. Most of the work is still manual. I mean the record keeping for our hostels etc. There’s a rumor that this time, they are upgrading everything. I’m sincerely hoping that it ends well.
My book addiction is back and I have started to retreat, into my books again. People sometimes bore me. I get tired of them too fast. It’s happening again. And this time I’m not worried about me.
I have been thinking and I guess soon I will be able to write something new, if I continue, but not today. My head is giving me hard time. I woke up from an uneasy sleep after hearing thunder outside. And my head just won’t stop hurting.
I better go have some rest before writing becomes more difficult. I will return as soon as I can think again and write something new.
Until then,
Chao!

Diary entry 44


Dear diary,

I’ve been avoiding studies for past 4 days now.Now and then,I’ll grab my book, open it in my lap and still won’t study. I’m all messed up.One more day to go before my exam.Which means I will waste one more day unwillingly.

Argh!Why don’t I sit and study???!!!

My God!Now even my mind is blank!

a light shower might help.

See ya!

P.S:Where do brains go,when you need them the most???!!!