Happy B’day…..


To Me….

Or is it?! Is it really, if I don’t have anyone to share it with?!

With all the wishes swarming my way from yesterday up till now, I’ve felt more down than they have lifted me. And for once, I know exactly why. For once I know what is bothering me deep down inside.

When I came to Lahore, I didn’t make any friends here. Because, one; I’m an introvert who loves to be alone and second because most people I’ve encountered here are back stabbing, lying lunatics. And I’m not sorry that I didn’t make any friends because I love to steer clear of all the drama these people bring. And these trivial things become such a heartache. Certainly not worth it.

Yes, I love to be alone. being alone recharges me; keeps me sane. It’s just being lonely that hurts like hell. A day like today, is sadly a reminder of what lovely things I have left behind me in the city I loved so much. It brings a smile on my face and at the same time, it clenches my heart in a suffocating grip. And yes, I’m grateful for all the friends I have, who love me, but are too far away. And like any other pathetic human being, I wish, they were here with me today, physically, instead of this virtual connection we share. But I guess, this is a burden that I must alone bear……

*sigh*

I’ve been thinking about writing a book; a novel of some sort. Or a collection of short stories perhaps, on wattpad. Today might be a great day to start. What do you say?

Until next time…….

 

P.S: I think I’m finally ready to part with the story I wrote and fell in love with.

Hint: look for my next post ❤

Diary Entry 128


Dear diary,
first off, this “beep beep boop” that wordpress shows while it makes me wait, is extremely annoying. That being said, I’m not here to say that. Actually I’m amazed at myself. I just posted here only some minutes ago and here I am again. I didn’t expect it.
But hear me out. I just had the craziest idea. I was re-reading my last post while listening to “Sawan aya hai” (the song I’m currently obsessing over *duh!*) and this crazy little idea just popped into my head. I write blogs and I’ve been a radio fan since forever. If I combine both things, I get a voice blog. And now I’m wondering why didn’t I think of this ever before? Honestly, it would be a lot easier if my expression occasionally got voice so that I would be able to enact the yelling in my head. What do you think? Is it a good idea or did I just go crazy???!!!
Yup, I’m asking you for a sincere advice. Should I or should I not work on this idea (recording won’t be easy but I’m ready to work on it if …… well you know!)
Dilemma, dilemma, dilemma…… Yup, it’s gonna be a difficult night now (thanks t my brilliant mind!)
Anyway, I should be off now.
See Ya!